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Name: J.
Birthday: 9/3/1982
Gender: Female
Interests: Spending massive quality time with my grls:
YM WH JK (x2) HS JC KC JW VC MJ YD TP
Sessioning, chilling, eating out, going on spontaneous adventures, hanging around the block and shooting shiet wit my Clyde (SnJ...tapatap....no doubt...one luv~)
Massive shopping (Fcuk,Guess, Zara, HnM, Townshoes, Marciano, Sephora, MAC, anywhere and everywhere on Queen)
Feeling and being JUICED out ( o juicy u will always be my lover!! lol)
Reggae/soca tunes....I wayne, sizzla, scoobay, capleton, vybz kartel, Destra, Rupee, Kevin Lyttle, all da TnT big shattas!
Expertise: Over-analyzing, observing things, predictions through observations, making a fool out of myself, and chillllinnnnnn of course.....I am one down asss biiiiatttttttttcccchhhhhhhhhh!!!!!
Occupation: Marketing
Industry: Medical
Message: message me
Member Since:
4/7/2003
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| Passion vs. Comfort
I think i for one is a believer of having passion makes great love. I didn't even realize how much I yearn for passion more than anything in a relationship with the opposite sex. It is so much easier to find comfort in somebody over finding someone you can share chemistry with. I think right now I am feeling very confused to the point where I cannot even sleep because I think I have made the mistake of picking being comfortable than living in the moment.
I was scared to risk a very good thing for something that was unknown to me.
2 years now....my comfort faces my passion under the same roof. If i had to pick again....I would really wanna live out my passion all over again. That feeling only exist in my memory of the past. But how do I go about to making this happen without risking to hurt the one that i feel most comfortable with and that has always been there for me over someone that once gave me pleasure and wisdom?
Maybe I made the biggest mistake of stepping into that house two nights ago.....I should've never entertained that idea of being able to all be in the same room feeling happy and fine. One clueless, One confused and One frustrated is just a disaster waiting to happen.
My hearts telling me to be bad..my minds telling me to be smart.....I know what I really want to do is the worst and most stupid thing but it sounds soooo good. The thought of it makes me sleepless. I have never felt this strong in wanting to do something to the point where I cannot sleep in a very long time.
Any suggestions??
P.S this is not a contemplation of cheating on my bf......lets not get the wrong idea
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| looking back at my last post to the point where im at now is totally different. some may say its been a good journey to be where i was to the point where i am at now but i truly feel that i've been pretty stagnant with a lot of aspects of my life. something definately needs to be changed in my life. perhaps a new scenary, new moves, new career paths and fresh new start is much needed. i've been exhausted with the city and with my imaginary mr. big that rite about now is the time to break away frum everything thats been pullin me down and keeping me at this stagnant point. everyone around me has been talkin abt changing the scenary and moving on with their lives perhaps this is an inspiration for me to move on with mine as well. what i need to decide is whether if this is the right decision for me. how would it make me feel when i leave and how it will change the situation i feel like im in for the better. what have i got to lose and if theres more to gain that overrides that and most importantly if i will be happy with my decision of moving down there with a fresh new start. so many thoughts in my head i jus really need to sit down and think abt where all these thoughts will come in and make sense......i think im really confused. but one thing for shure is that at the end of everything. i just wanna come out of it happy and healthy....be with the people i love and who loves me back just as much :)
Just a lil thought.....and to all those who are confused with what they wanna do with their life and feel stuck...make a move and start implementing your choices because time is ticking and at the end of the day theres no time to waste..create ur own path and make ur own future. The opportunity is out there for you to grasp!
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| yet another update!
Karibana weekend
EVERYBODY MAKE SHURE U VOTE ME ON BARNET.TV or TXT me and vote me for top bartender toronto....u have until september 4th to vote me =)
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| wow it has been abt a month and a half since i've updated...i guess been too busy lately on the go everyday all day....to all my immediate friend on xanga..this post is prolly a bore since u guys know wut i've been up to but for the ones i haven't talked to in awhile..things have been great...can't wait to start school again full time this september..bak to school i go! and working part time on the weekends bartending (yes! bartending!) at the club..it's been great..ppl's been great at the club...made sum new bartender friends whom r awesome =) and of course been wining and dining all summer still...tonite was at amuse bouche which was awesome...went out with sukhi and ian once again and the food was AMAZING...i had the duck breast again which i find was better than the one at messis..anna ordered the lobster with ravioli omg that was divine..sukhi had the angus beef and that was jus out of this world...mine was extraordinaire..as always lol..and ian's tuna was OOOKKK..too light for me...had 2 bottles of french white over dinner, scallops vetican tartare and colored beets for aps and top it off..green tea creme brulee...awesome dinner..i luvvv fine dining...fcuk summerlicious lol....aside frum that, been tryin to hit sum major hot spots..janet..frum getjanet.com ( you should DEFINTELY check her site out) my celebrity stylist/show producer friend hosts budo tuesdays if u r lookin for a place to jam with random celebrities this is the place to be on a tuesday..nice rooftop, awesome hiphop and pretty ppl...must go on a tuesday! Ultra on a thursday is awesome as well..i would think the dining would be better..but the lounge/bar on the rooftop is a LOT better than the food there....a new hotspot is opened on mondays called GRASS..it jus opened not too long ago if u're looking for a place to schmooze and mingle...this place is awesome as well..rooftop patio nice house music...and hot boys like sergio parties there...branthouse and century r always a weekly hotspot on tuesdays and thursdays..but need a new refreshing change...jenny n i checked out devil's martini a couple of weeks bak on a friday and its sooo horribly wrong there...too bright and the crowd is just awful...apparently steve says its better on saturdays..im bound to check it out if only i can get darren to give me a day off :T
Hotspots and fine dining is the way of life for my summer lifestyle..enjoying the most out of my summer while i can before hitting the books hardcore in the fall and hibernating once again...n.e one interested in checkin out new spots try my suggestions and if u got sum of ur own..please hit me up and tell me cause im always on a search for hotspots during the week =)
One luv to my grls jenny, winnie, vi, annax2 molly yhon tams periann and milaika and stevie B for partying with me all summer long and keeping me sane and happy =) i am always satisfied with my group of friends...wouldnt' want n.e thing more than wut i have luv u big time xoxo
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| A girl I know had her surgery today. She was diagnosed with a brain tumor a few months back. Her condition requires major surgery which she will walk out with the loss of her hearing. Only now is when she started tellin everybody about her condition. Most of my condolences goes out to her today. Couldn't help but to think about her a few times all day. When I heard about it, my heart almost stopped because not only is this grl young, she is also a talented excellent individual with a bright future ahead. It is quite a tragedy to hear something so serious can happen to anybody. Makes me value and cherish my health and the little things that matter in life. Rather than dwell on how certain aspects of my life isn't perfect the way I want it to be now, I should appreciate the great things that I DO have in my life. Health is definately one factor. Minus the mild asema attacks due to serious allergy problems, I really can't complain because I don't got much serious conditions. And I can never be more thankful for that. All my love goes out to M. for being so optimistic about her situation and taking it day by day and never let her condition be a factor and let it live her life. Losing one part of your senses could be the most tragic thing in the world, but only if you let it. I am glad that she can think this way. I respect her that much for being so brave. If only I could be as brave as her, I would truly be blessed. Much luv.
On other note, I had a very nice dinner today. Winnie and I went to Messis on Spadina and Harbord. A little nice medditarean bistro. It is somewhat pricey but yet affordable. Had the shrimp appetizer that was a major ripoff 9 dollars for 3 shrimps and a mango salsa salad..NOT worth it. Winnie had the Pan fried Halibut with risotto and baby bak choy with an orange drizzle..it was quite yummy, but not as good as my seared duck breast with a pramesan polenta and farmers green over duck jus...uhmmmm..sooo yummy....and for dessert we had a wildberries filo strudel with tahiti vanilla ice cream and berries, and a lovely vanilla creme brulee w/ shortbread....we also opened a bottle of merlot before dinner and a bottle of white for dinner...mmmmmmm...sooo yummy great meal indeed :)
Im gettin the season 1 of the OC tmrw...i hope its good i've been hearing a lot abt it =) startin it from scratch...more hibernation for the rest of the week....presentation on thursday...which i am HALFway done and 2 more reports to write before end of next week...i am SEMI stressing...not fully yet...im shure i'll be pulling hair by wednesday nite if not, next monday tuesday and wednesday....i HATE reports...fcuk
dumplings r nice...especially if they're hmmade by urs truly...added sum meat flavoring to the pork with a hint of green onions..boil it over seasame oil, chick stock and a sprinkle of onions is jus divine =) of course its better eaten in hotpot but ehhh...good nuff for a midnite studying snack
i wish sean was online....booournns
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